I don’t think you have even the slightest idea
How much I hurt
How difficult it is to move on from the past
Because the pain, the pain you caused persists
No matter how many times I try and pick myself up
The countless times I tried to disguise tears with laughter
And the endless declarations never to think of you again, never to care
Are all for nothing because something always brings me back to you.
I hate so many things about you
Yet, I compare everyone, anyone to you
And no one, not a single one, comes close.
I’m angry at myself for doing that
I’m angry at myself for still having these feelings for you
After all that’s happened, after all you’ve done
I still miss you, love you
I will have to learn to forgive us
That time will come soon enough
Things may be uncertain right now
But this I am sure of – – –
It is because of the hate and love you’ve made me feel
That I don’t ever want you back.