Same Time Last Year

I encountered a frowning lady cashier at the mall earlier. She wasn’t rude, but she wasn’t the common smiling amiable cashier I usually encounter.

Same time last year (I seem to have a knack for running errands on the second day of the year), I encountered another cashier just like the one today. The frowning, not uppity and cheerful kind. Last year though, I made an effort to cheer up the frowning cashier, and left her smiling. Left both of us smiling. 

This time around, I made no effort. I was polite, but I exerted no effort to cheer up another soul. Why? Because maybe I, too, need(ed) some cheering up.

I’m not down, as in Eeyore-down, but I’m not Tigger-happy either.

Sometimes, you simply cannot give what you don’t have. 



Are there times when you get too overwhelmed with the wonderful things that are happening, 

You’d have to pinch yourself to check if you’re dreaming

Feel the pain from the pinch, but be glad to have felt it

Feel the relief that everything is real and true 

Then pray you’d stay wide-awake as everything unfolds ❤️


I thought we were on our way to something wonderful —

Something grand,
Something beautiful.
All of a sudden, I wake up to a new day with you gone.
Just like that —
Like the days and weeks before were nothing but my imagination.
Text messages and call logs are all I have left of you
And short vivid memories of how happy I was just flew.
Now I’m left wondering —
How could a person,
So beautiful, so gentle
Have the heart to leave a poor soul hanging, hurting, doubtful
What am I supposed to do —
Be like you and forget
That this nonsense ever happened?
What if I can’t?
What if I refuse?
Did you ever think
That not everyone’s built like you?
Please, please enough of this
Momentary bliss.
Please, please stop what you do
The world is already filled with too many fools.



There’s a  lightness – – –

Like floating in the air,

Sitting on your own little fluffy cloud

Gazing upon everyone else.

Up, up in the sky you go!

Not a care in the world you leave by.

Not worrying if you’ll ever come back

To all that you left behind.

Up, up in the sky I go!

Will I come back?

I really do not know.