The clouds seem extra gloomy and heavy
Temper’s a lot shorter
Patience, not enough
Situations are less bearable
I stop; I take a deep breath
I close my eyes for ten seconds
Five minutes, or so.
I try and open my eyes
I feel the familiar anxiety, like I am about to explode
Like a balloon poked by a sharp tip
I close my eyes again in fear
Can I keep them shut much longer?
Can all these pain and failures be gone
When I open my eyes to be blinded by the light again?